Why don't I have periods?
I'm not sure why I have waited so long to bring up this topic. Lately, its been bothering me but before a couple months ago I was completely fine with it. I figured I was lucky to not have periods like most women do. I saved money on tampons, I didn't have to endure cramps and the inconvenience of bleeding...but I didn't think about long term problems. Do I have anything medically wrong with me? Are my hormones going to be imbalanced for the rest of my life( and suffer from acne)?
Can I have another baby? And that's what started my depression, the desire of having a baby.
Some of you know, some don't, I have a toddler that's four and he's my angel. However, I always wanted to have more than one child. I grew up with the best siblings and I was always entertained by them. When the thought of having only one child raddles back and fourth in my head, I can't help but cry. My dear son won't have a sibling to hold on to during the hard times, he won't be an uncle or have anyone to play with growing up. A sister or brother is possibly the best family member you can have. You grow up together, live together and eventually pass away together. They are there practically your whole life. I feel like I'm failing my son since I can't give him the precious gift of a sibling.
I also feel like it's time for me to have another baby. If you're a mom, then I'm sure you know what I mean. I can't help but think of the times when a baby is cradled in tight arms and rocked to sleep. The sweet moments of looking at them when their peacefully dreaming. Oh, the heavenly scent they give off. The love... I feel like my heart is wanting to love another child. But I'm afraid I can't. I'm sure everyone here knows how monthly cycles work. There's an egg, if it's not fertilized, then the uterus sheds(your period). I obviously don't lay an egg since I don't have periods. My last period was around June 20, 2014. Before that I had them around every four months and that's how I recieved my first child. Now, I just don't get them at all. So what's wrong with me?
Curious about what my doctor has said? Nothing, because I haven't talked to one about my situation. I know I should but I'm afraid of any bad news I may recieve when I go in. Once it's confirmed I'm afraid my fears will be true.. Then, It will be real and right now it's just a thought forced in my head... I don't want that to happen.
Anyways, I feel like I should stop this post here before I get too emotional. Sorry I haven't posted much lately but infertility can drown a woman with depression. I'll try to post more often! But let me know in the comments below if you have or currently are experiencing anything similar. I would love to know your story!
Thanks for reading, Taylor Pie.
